Summer of Drama

Having decided not to return to grad school next semester, finishing up this last month of classes is incredibly difficult... But it is possible that I transfer a few credits so I'll keep on keeping on, I guess... Some days I wish I could just completely quit. Who am I kidding? Every day I wish I could just quit.

I've made so many friends in this short semester, so I really will miss them, but I will enjoy not paying so much for this education and the stress entailed! A job and the "real world" for a while will be nice. Time to be normal and take on whatever may come is really needed right now.

I deleted my Facebook account [again] because of the drama and time-sucking. Some days I wish I lived in a time without technology. I wish that when you cut ties it was a true cutting rather than today's staying connected through the internet. Or the concept of not ever having time off because of the ever-present connection bubble. I digress...

These upcoming weeks are going to be a real pain. And missing my boyfriend, that's not easy either. We'll see how this goes. For now, I take this all one step at a time, this summer of drama!

The First

I could start this post by talking about what made me decide to start a blog, but that seems redundant, overdone, and a tad absurd. Instead, I will tell about this summer, and a little earlier. 

April: 

• Notified that I had been pulled from the waitlist for a graduate program, now accepted (yay!)
• Had to decide whether or not to attend that program, with a set deadline for an answer
• Decided, "What the heck, why not?"
• Overwhelmed

May: 

• Moved all undergrad finals so I could start graduate school the week of undergrad finals (I'm insane, I know)
• Decided to break an engagement... long story
• Started the program, THEN graduated undergrad
• Overwhelmed

June:

• First month of living in this supposed "real world" they speak of-- at home, at graduate school 2 days a week and home doing homework the other 5.... Not real.
• Decided I'd start a new relationship, because that makes sense (really do care about him and appreciate that relationship, but that's irrelevant at the current moment)...
• Midterms
• "W" Day passes
• OVERWHELMED

July:

• Sudden realization of the INCREDIBLE amount of debt for a private grad school with no financial aid-- interesting how misleading pre-orientation paperwork can be
• Loans, debt, and other scary stuff
• SO......... I call up some people for advice, shoot an email, and come August, I'll be out of grad school --hell'a ride
• Now I make myself finish these exams and stuff, hoping to make it out with decent grades...
• And quick question, who assigns homework without grades attached? 
• Still somewhat overwhelmed

Next step:

Finish this semester and then enter the real, "real world" for a while until the application opens up at another school. No thanks to a life of debt from a "half-time" program that has 19 credit hours for the summer term. Yes, 19. 19! Anyway....... I can find a better deal and like it more. 

So, welcome to the blog. The insights and thoughts from a girl who broke off an engagement and dropped out of graduate school. But hey, I'm just 20, I've got tons of time.